Graduation day today, and you know how much sleep I got?
Yes that’s right, none!
I already have the Goddamn boil I had over my spine for years back due to sleep deprivation. I wonder what else insomnia shall bring to me. >: (
So I have my big, highly-anticipated graduation ceremony tomorrow. My mother is making a huge deal of it and wants everything to be 100% perfect.
In order to ruin it, my body has decided to make me throw up twice today already, and won’t let me hold any food down. It loves me so.
I’M GONNA PUKE. WHY AM I SITTING HERE? :X :X :X
I am so fucking stupid.
So I was shopping with my mum and sister for graduation clothes, and mum gave me her car key to go back to the car and wait on her while she got stuff for herself. When I got to the car it wouldn’t open. I kept pressing the button on the key but nothing happened. Eventually I figured the battery was dead, so I went for doing it the old fashioned way and put the key into the door lock. OMG IT WOULDN’T TURN. I kept trying but something wasn’t right. I thought the car might have been damaged and the locking system was broken or something.
Then, just as I was about to call my mother and tell her she’d probably need to call the AA, I REALISED IT WAS THE WRONG FUCKING CAR. The real car was sitting a few spaces away.
Is it possible to be stupider than that? I doubt it.
All night I was kept awake by a noise that sounded like a mixture between a tap being turned on, a clock ticking and a magpie. I have no idea what it was, but fuck, that’s 4 days now with very little sleep.
I even have a new spot from this sleep deprivation, despite the roaccutane. I don’t know how much longer I can last. : (
Seriously. Any offers to provide a good slapping will not be turned down.
Any offers to provide self-restraint, patience and reasoning skills will result in my whole entire being being devoted to you.
I’ve been taking caffeine pretty regularly for 3 years now, because uni always tired me out massively. When I have some I feel the energy come pretty quickly along with a strange feeling of happiness. According to the information I just read, however, caffeine tolerance is supposed to occur pretty quickly…although at a higher dosage than I dare consume. I do find it interesting that I seem to have no level of tolerance, though, and it makes me as jittery and restless now as it did 3 years ago. I was always sensitive to caffeine and I still am.
I do worry that I’ve probably gotten myself slightly addicted, but maybe I just actually like the taste of energy drinks. Either way, caffeine is my drug of choice, and it’s the best one I could choose. No drunk sex, crazy munches, lung cancer or skeletal, sunken face for me! FIDGETING AND INSANE DESPARATION TO PEE FTW.
I’m getting the feeling that the family member I suspected of viewing my last blog has been viewing this one too. As a result, I have to resist posting anything about family. I really want to talk about something specific. Argh. >: ( This is not cool at all.
WHAT DO I DO!?
It’s right above my bed and if I touch it, it may fall and varnish amongst my sheets, but it’s creeping me out just sitting there. It’s been there for two days!
It’s just drama, drama, drama in this life.
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